No idea

Something is wrong with me nowadays

My brain is not functioning well

Usually I will have lots of ideas in doing anything

But even though I wanted to blog so badly I can't think of what to write

Usually the normal me

I can crap alot without even thinking

But my mind now is just blank

My mind is empty right now

Is like nothing left there

Is it because I've been doing nothing nowadays

Only online and watching tv is my daily routine now

And I've been sleeping kinda late every single day

I tried to sleep early but I just can't sleep

For example, today

I tried to sleep early but i can't fall asleep

So i end up blogging here

Oh well

I know it's not healthy

But what can I do

And I've been thinking too much lately i guess

I keep thinking bout my future?

Ahh.. lame. I know

Up until now I still not sure what I wanted to be

My dream? My ambition?

No idea at all

I do have something i love to do

But to my mum,

it's not gonna give me a good future

In other word, I'm not gonna earn much with that kind of job

Maybe she's right

But what am I suppose to do then?

All the high-salary job is the job I'm not interested in

This what I keep thinking bout almost everyday

What I wanted to do in my future?

What do I like?

What would keep me happy ?

So many questions but no answers yet

Cause I'm too afraid to make a choice

I'm afraid I'll give up halfway cause I regretted with what i chose

I'm afraid I'll be miserable in my life if I make the wrong choice

I'm afraid of everything!

Gahhhhh

I think I'm going crazy soon

Honestly, I don't have any talents or anything I'm good at

Yes, I do jealous looking at others who have so many great talents

And me I have NONE

Maybe I haven't found mine yet

Or maybe I never ever get to know myself

Maybe I keep thinking that I'm not good in everything

Well, to me I am not good enough

I wan't to be better

I do love compare myself to others so I can improve more

I seriously hope it can help me

at least motivate me to work hard so that I achieve what I want

I am still learning to be a better person

I may not be perfect

this is because as human nobody is perfect

But I wanna be a person that someone can really notice me

or perhaps pay more attention to me?

Guess I'm asking too much

Stop dreaming!

LOL

Anyway, success always come when you work hard

So I hope I can get rid of my laziness and become a more hardworking person

At least a bit will do :P