Disappointment

Only one word can describe my results : Disappointment 
It's not that bad actually.
It just not good enough for me
I thought I can do better than this
But I was wrong.
Yes. I am sad.
But flashing back I know I didn't give it my all
I was still wasting time by doing unnecessary stuff.
If I worked hard perhaps my results will be better.
I feel regret by not appreciate the time I have last time
I admit I am lazy.
But it's already too late to change anything



So I'm telling myself now that
No more fooling around anymore.
When it's time to get serious just do it seriously
When it's time to play, just play hard
Play hard. Work hard.
Fair enough right?



I promise myself that I have to work hard from now on
I don't wanna be lazy anymore
God gave me one more chance
And I have to appreciate it
This will be my last chance to prove myself
If i screw this too I am such a FAILURE
I should just bang my head to the wall and die



I know most of my friends get good results right?
Congrats to you all :)
Y'all deserve it
I'm so proud of you guys!

Tomorrow is the DAY!

The day we have been waiting for is finally here.

SPM results will be out 23 March 2011

Which is TOMORROW! *omg face*

Seriously no feeling at all.

Maybe I've been busy working everyday so I never have the time to even think about it

After work just straight go to bed. LOL

This few months just went quite well to me.

No nightmares.

No sleepless night.

No tension.

No butterflies in stomach "yet". :P

I wonder is this a good or bad thing? :/

It's not that I don't care bout my results

I never show it doesn't means I don't

My future it's all depends on the results.

Results sucks = No future

So yeah. The results will be the turning point of my life.

Just hope everything will be FINE.

May God bless me :) *finger crossed*

Now it's the perfect time to sing this song:

I close my eyes and I can see a better day,

I close my eyes and PRAY.

I wish I get to sleep well tonight. Please don't think too much!

Don't wanna look like a ghost and meet all my friends tomorrow.

I wish I can get good results. Please please please... I beg you!

At least no C will be good enough.

I'm sure you will help me with that right, GOD? (:

Please PRAY hard for me!

Oh right. All the best to all the 93' convent girls ! Good Luck to y'all too. *smiles*

Can't wait to meet all of you

Miss y'all like crazy

Complains

So now after Spm. I had nothing to do much

Mostly I stay at my home

I'm bored to hell now

My mom didn't let me go out!

I wanted to find a job but I didn't get a chance to go out

How am I suppose to find a job like this?

*frustrated*

I need MONEY so badly now

No money, no talk

Everyone knows that

In this world , money is everything!

But I didn't say others is not important

Still money is what people care for right?

You need money to buy everything!

Without money, maybe you will starve to death someday

I can't wait for this year to end

Frankly, this year is just a disaster year for me

I don't really enjoy this year though

Nothing fun

This year is the year full with STRESS

Exams. trials. homework. revisions. school. SPM.

Ughhhh

It is just everything I hate

I'm just hoping next year will be a better year for me

Oh yeah

My sis coming back next month!

WOO-HOO!
I never seen her for almost a year!!

She been busy working oversea and can't come back here often

Plus, if my sis comes back

which means I can finally go out!

So i don't need to stay in the boring house anymore

Anyway, I just hope she won't ask bout my SPM

My mom said she ask her bout me

Sighhh

I know I'm sucks and made a lot of mistakes

Please don't remind me bout it

Just let me get over it and live my life happily

Okay. So I'm done complaining bout my miserable life

But it's not over yet

I'm sure there will be lots more complains in the future

:D

No Chemistry With Chemistry

So tomorrow is my Chemistry test

*screammmm*

Honestly, I hate chemistry

From all my 3 science subjects, my chemistry is always the worse one

I seriously don't understand chemistry no matter how many times i read it

It's too complicated with all those equations stuff

I always scared of chemistry

That's why chemistry is the only subject that I've done the most exercises

Cause I don't want my chemistry to be sucks again for my spm

At least get a B is enough for me

I don't wanna get C or D for it

So I just can hope it won't come out something that's too hard for me

Because I have no chemistry with chemistry

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.

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My relationship status for today:

It's complicated with Chemistry :)

My worst nightmare

My worst nightmare:

ADDITIONAL MATHS!!!

Today it's my add maths test

I thought I can do better in my spm

But in the end I realise I was wrong

It ain't that easy

No matter how hard I work for my addmaths

I will still can't solve and can't do some of the questions

Seriously I'm kinda scare of my addmaths

I can't sleep well last night

I even studied addmaths till like 3.30am in the morning

I just slept for 2 hours only!

Gosh!

I can't believe I can still survive till now with just 2hours of sleep

My test finished at 4.3opm

I didn't get a chance to rest or sleep

But whatsoever my addmaths still sucks!!

I didn't have enough time to finish for both papers

FML

Left a few blanks there

and lost like more than 10marks because of that

Sigh

Why am I so freaking slow?!!

Why can't my brain work faster?!

I know. Cause I'm such a dumbo. Duh.

Sacrifice my sleep for addmaths but still I didn't do well

Anyway, you're out of my list

Cross you out!! :PP

Hope I won't be seeing you again

And I'm sleepy right now

But I can't sleep, I have to do this

I must study until I feel that I studied something

Must. Studyyyyyyy!!

Physics please don't disappoint me like addmaths did =D

I'm begging you

*finger crossed*

What's Next?

Okay.

Spm has started and today is the 3rd day

So I've finished 3 subjects.

Bm, Bi and Sejarah

Now 7 more to go

Arghhhh

I'm so frustated

Maybe the language subject it's still okay

But the history test

When I open the paper 2 I literally just shocked

Not one that I read came out

I mean I memorise some of the topics like hell

End up nothing that I memorise came out

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.

FML

It came out all the topics that I skip or just read thru

Too bad I can't remember

Great

I even made a few mistakes on the questions that I know

Maybe I'm dreaming or I'm blind

Now I screwed my history test

Ughhhhh

What's next?

Last Countdown

1 day left people!!

Its ONE!

Less than 24 hours :O

*screammmmm*

I can't believe tomorrow it's SPM

I mean so fast?

Last still got a lot of time to play but now tomorrow already spm

No more playing anymore

It's time to get serious

Go go go!

Wish me luck :D

Oh oh.

Almost forgot

all the best to people who is taking SPM and STPM too!

Let's fight this war together

Sweet Dreams :)

I woke up at 1pm AGAIN

sigh

I sleep too much nowadays or maybe not :P

It should be

I sleep too late everyday

But i love my dream yesterday!!

I can still remember clearly about it when I woke up

Hoho

So I must blog about it :3

Scare i'll forget bout it later

I dreamt bout Ian Somerhalder and Nina Dobrev !!!

Omg Omg Omg xD

First time dreamt bout them

I'm so happy

Hahaha

I know , I know it's not real

But still it's kinda nice to have this kind of dream sometimes

It makes me happy :D

It's been so long I never dream bout celebrities already

Last time I always dream bout celebrities

Well. the dream it's kinda short actually

but still i like it :)

Okay. let's talk bout the dream

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Ian and Nina were in my school

And they were in my class actually

but weird

It's like nobody care bout them or anything

Hello!

there's a celebrities in our school people

So i went and talk to them

I talked to Ian :DD

He's so cute

Love it when he smile

I love the way he talk too

It's so Ian style

LOL

xD

Then he let me see all the photos of him during photoshoot

It's a lot of photos

Then my friend come and say she wanna look

I'm like blek xDD

Ahahaha

I'm so bad

But at first they don't even care bout them

So why now when I'm looking at Ian's photos only they wanna see

Then I ask Ian something

I asked him "where's Paul Wesley?"

He looks like shuttering or something

Nina said the timing it's not right so he can't come

Then Ian said " yeah, he can't come"

Well. of course I'm a bit disappointed that I can't see him

But at least I get to see them

So still it's a good thing

I guess that's all

I woke up already later

Haha

Too bad can't continue the dream

Hope I can dream bout them again

It will be awesome

And I wish it's real

I wanna see them in real person!!!

They seem so nice

Haihh

I know it's not gonna happen

The sad thing is Season 2 episode 10 of vampire diaries will be air on 2nd dec

Noooooooo!

I can't watch

Huhu T.T

I got the stupid spm

Dammit

Well nevermind, I'm gonna watch it after my spm.

Even their novels I have no time to read yet

Seriously can't wait for it to over soon

So i'll be freeeeee!

Time Is Money

I do agree time is money

I always use this in my essay for BM when I'm in primary school :

"Masa itu emas"

LOL

But sometimes you won't even realise that time past way too fast

I mean you didn't even feel like time is passing

For example:

When you online

You always say to yourself that you just wanna online a while

But when you look back at the time

It's already 2 hours gone

Seriously, why does the time past so fast when you online or doing something fun?

I just don't get it

In school

the time past damn freaking SLOW

Everytime I look at my watch

It's always a lot of time left for the period to end

The teacher will just keep teaching non-stop

Blah blah blah all the way

Even waiting for recess also needa wait so long

At that time, I just wish time can past faster

Okay. Let's talk about today

Since I've so long never touch my addmaths

I decided to some exercise today

I do read some notes before I do the exercise

Cause' can't really remember how to do it anymore

It's been ages never touch that book already

I just manage to study Form 4 Chapter 1 to 5

I've been doing just a few questions only

I look back at the time

3 hours gone

Time is definitely not our friend

It won't wait for us

Gosh

I didn't realise I used that much time to solve a few addmaths questions

Thanks alot to the indices and logarithms

Solve until my head also wanna burst

I never ever like that chapter from the begining

too complicated with all the log stuff

Usually it will come on in paper 1

my 4 or 3 marks will be gone D:

Cause I always can't solve that question

Oh right

Not to mention differentiation, integration, vectors, trigonometric.

All the topics that I'm not good at

Even sometimes I can't even solve the progressions questions

Sigh

Disappointed at myself

Exam time is seriously stressful

Brain not functioning well

I will only saw my mistakes after my exam

Guess i panic or something if i can't solve something

Hope it won't happen during my SPM

*pray*

And

I wanna thank my sis for the wish and the advices

I miss you

Come back to Malaysia soon ya :D

I know you are busy working

Take care!

The most scary thing is

my mom has high expectation from me

Seriously

You gotta be kidding me

I'm not a genius you know

She said: Please don't embarrass me. A lot of people will definitely ask bout your results.

This is just great.

More pressure now

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Enough talking.

Study time

I can do itttttttt

Countdown

3 days more to SPM!!

72 hours D:

Study study study

Yes, don't be lazy.

I'm out of time

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Go go!

*off to study*

Cheer Up

I just wanted to be happy in life

But because of something happen I feel miserable and sad right now

It just happen in the wrong wrong time

I cannot let all those stuff affect me

My SPM is coming real soon

I just don't want it to distract me

It make me no mood to study thinking bout it

I should be studying right now

instead i'm still blogging

Oh great

I'm lack of time but still I'm wasting my time here

Someone should really wake me up

I need to focus on my revision right now

I just can't deal with all those problems anymore

I just hate my life

I hope everything will be fine soon

Ughhhhh

Why do i have to suffer through all this?

Well whatever

This is my life that nobody's care

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I should get over it and cheer up!

Crisis

Usually at these time people will be damn busy studying

But why am i here wasting my time?

I don't even know why i like to waste my time by doing all those useless and nonsense stuff

Online, watching tv, listening to music and more

Everytimes i open my book

I'll feel bored and will eventually can't concentrate

And I'll go and do some other stuffs

Arghhhhhh

Must.control.myself!

This can't be happening to me

left just 2 more weeks i'll be facing the world war III of my life

SPM!

I'm not really the kind of person who can sit quietly in my room

And study the whole day

I always wonder how all the smart people study

Do they really study the whole day like mad?

Hmm...

But study hard won't always work

You must study smart :D

LOL

As though i can really study smart

Even myself also not really smart

How am i suppose to know what is study smart?

I can't even balance my time well between studies and entertainment

Usually the entertainment will be more than studies

This is BAD

I'm in crisis right now

I need somebody to help me!

Scold me or anything will do

I can't promise that i won't online the whole day

The only thing i can do is

just cut down on online and watching tv

That's all

Hope it works

If not I can already see my dark future ahead of me

D:

-Happy studying-

Sucks sucks sucks

Finally got back all my trials results

Sucks to the max ! D:

Some of my marks drop tremendously compare to my previous exam

But some I do improved a lot

Especially my Maths and Physics

Still the overall results of my trials I'm not really happy bout it

I know I can do better than that

Anyway, it's all over now

BUT

Hopeful I passed for all the subjects

Thank God!

My results will not be looking good with the G there

Haha

I should be working really really hard if I wanna excel in my SPM

This is not an easy job

So i begging myself to study hard from now onwards

Pleaseeeeee

You have to do well

This is your last chance to prove yourself that you can do it!

My dream for 2010 is to get straight A's in my SPM

Can my dream comes true? =/

Well, it's all depends on ME!

Gotta work hard to make my dream comes true

"Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world"